When what you want and what you can have are on opposite sides of the Berlin wall
When it hurts so bad you wish you could cry it out but you can�t because your stomach muscles have been sliced open
When you are tired of being hurt, tired of hearing words that aren�t meant, tired of giving and getting nothing back
When you are burdened and disillusioned and bitter and ready to quit
When there is no drug to dull your pain and time seems to just make it worse
When you are torn between doing what you know is right and doing what your stupid battered heart wants right at this moment
When you are starting to hate everything with a penis for the first time ever
When you find yourself bereft of hope
When you wish you could have received back 1/10th of what you put into it
When all the sad songs in the world don�t make it better
When all the happy songs in the world don�t make it better
When all you have to look at are the same four walls
When your cell phone stops ringing
Then it is time to make some resolutions that you will probably regret tomorrow.
What I want to see when January rolls around:
A new car
A new job
A new apartment
Other than that, I don�t really care. If I can just focus on that. And give up on love. I�m not meant to have a man by my side. I get it. So no dating. No sex. Nothing. No men. Besides, I�m thinking next time, it should be a girlfriend on my arm.
It's a lie too, I have now lied to all of you. I do care. I do.
