I want to eat
2003-10-02, 6:50 p.m.

I want to eat. And not because I�m hungry. I�m not. I�m bored and lonely and restless and sad and wanting to be held. And I still think that eating is the appropriate way to deal with these feelings. I�m not eating. I just want to. And I�m telling myself not to eat because I know it won�t really make me happy. And it would make me feel sick. And I wouldn�t be able to chow down the way I feel like I want to so I�d only get frustrated. But I still want to. I just have to embrace my small victory�I recognize the problem before I gave in, and I am not giving in.

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